and i don't want the world to see me, cos i don't think that they'd understand,when everything's meant to be broken,i just want you to know who i am... -IrisI am Erdiana. Pessimistic. Thats my middle name. I am the girl next door, smiling to my neighbours. When i enter the room, i am a depressive, paranoid freak. When I'm asleep, I'm still constantly thinking and thats what made me. Thoughts, in my shoes, in everyone else's shoes. I have an attention deficit disorder. My mind wanders. I am a naturally happy person, but I can't be too happy when I think of the people who are suffering to keep me happy. Get? I can come up with lame jokes, and make you laugh, to keep me from feeling depressed for no particular reason. I try to make new friends everyday so it distracts me from my own problems. I don't like to be asked about my problems. I just come up with morbid poetry and indirectly express it. Thats what keeps me sane. So when you see a morbid poetry, you know that colder side of me is emerging, so don't ask. Just being there helps.
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