Monday, April 24, 2006
john used to sing me a song by matchbox twenty, called 'hand me down', and as my life has been a total bore for the past week (except for when i'm out with the guys in between 9pm to 2am), i started to listen to the song over and over again, as i used to back then. and i find a lot of meaning in the verses.
Someday they'll find your small town world on a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk when they're talking to you
Gonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth
They'll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say,
They're gonna break your heart.
From what I've seen
You're just a one more hand me down
Cause no one's tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now
Somebody ought to take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When they're under your skin
Never once did think they'd lie when they're holding you
You wonder why they haven't called
When they said they'd call you
You start to wonder if you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think you were born blind -matchbox 20, Hand Me Down.
i was singing a song i wrote (with awful guitar playing..) to a friend over the phone the other night.
'seventeen i was young, dreaming of years to come... sleepless nights of adrenaline, running through my veins. now i'm 21, fear is on my mind.. love i pushed aside, life i can't decide...'
and right there, he interrupted me. he said, 'wait! ur pushing love aside?' thats when he reminded me of the times when Hand Me Down, among thousands of other songs that John could have dedicated to me, used to be on my playlist. and then, that dear friend of mine sang part of the song.. 'somebody ought to take you in, try to make you love again'.
i'd rather not explain the rest of the things i started arguing with him about. simply put, i ended my argument with, Why rush into a relationship when we have so much ahead of us? its pathetic, these younger generation. they think that its a trend, to have someone holding them, passionately.. then one day they wake up to find they're pregnant after having sex, or rather, they call it, 'making love'. its the bloody same thing. then after suffering for 9 months, they think, 'i should have just made money before all these happened. why? why? why?' and then, they'd make sure their parents look after their kids for them, while they work at night, in places where temptation is at large, then they try to make money, but realise that its just not enough. then they'd start meeting new 'eligible lovers' and make more children. one BIG happy family. 6 children, 6 different fathers, 27 step-children, etc etc.
okay okay, i'll stop.
happy fucking.