Wednesday, March 01, 2006

the time it takes to heal can be the most challenging phase in your life. people try to break you, and you want to be pulled up but its not gonna happen. stand up for yourself, do whatever it takes to pull yourself up. i have loved to that extent where i dont know if it is really love after all, loving that someone, or thinking ur loving that someone who doesnt love you in the end. i guess it makes sense, the more you're unwanted, the more you fall deeper and want to be wanted. after all thats happened i can say that i was stupid, and still am for i'm still hurting over a worthless piece of trash. its so obvious that one person i had hopes for was trying to break me from the very beginning. who would just tear you apart on valentines day and then again on the very first day of your exams? he would.

my schoolmates have been very supportive these past few days. from making sure i make it for my exams to lending me a shoulder to lean on. i owe you guys.. gerri, rasul, singh, abishek and the guy from the part time class.. sorry i dont know your name.. oh wait.. i THINK its richard.. haha. oh, and of course, my lecturers, shan, shalini and anil who dont really know what happened, but i guess news in a law school spreads faster than a plague.. i felt so relieved yesterday and really proud when anil pulled me aside and said 'diana, i dont care if you can even pass coz i know you're not in a position at all to take the exams, but the fact that you came, you wrote your name, you attempted the questions, i am proud of you.'

and even gerri whos been facing a lot of problems herself said 'you've already won half the battle'... and rasul's been all 'worried' for me.. haha..

went out with lut last night after my paper to rouge to chill out.. it was a breather.. funny... breather in an extra smoky atmosphere with rock music. but yea, sitting there last night reminded me of how i used to have fun.. and BE fun.. well, i hope so. haha.

thanks lut, for being there for me.. hehe. it was really good to see u again.. n i still cant believe beer in germany is 50 cents.. damn u! haha..

and john, yes SEXY.. haha.. he's jealous cos i said liam gallagher's the sexiest man alive.. soooo, in rouge last night, he tried acting sexy and bit my ear. erm.. yea, that was sexy indeed.

oh well, enough of the thank yous and all. haha.. my last paper is tomorrow.. WUHOOOOO... and right after that, i wanna go to the beach and cycle and then jump into the sea.. and just sing some oasis song out loud...

i'm hurting but its good to know i'm still trying to pull myself up.

THANK YOU MY DARLING DUDES AND DUDETTES.


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